I am at the tail end of 4 weeks of intensive Electroconvulsive Therapy followed by 2 weeks of maintenance Electroconvulsive Therapy (yet to come). Slowly I see signs that my mood is improving. I feel more connected with my pets again, I am taking better care of myself – with regards to personal hygiene and eating. I am sleeping through the night (and even into the morning sometimes!).
But this morning when I woke up I had a very clear sign that I am getting better…..I woke up with a song in my head! Sounds simple but I LOVE music and when I am unwell I lose music altogether. I lose the desire to listen to music and especially the enthusiasm to really get into a song and feel it. So to wake up with one of my all time favourite songs in my head this morning was a gift! Straight away I opened Itunes and played the song and I danced and sang along, it was the most amazing feeling, so freeing. I have been listening to music all morning now and I can officially say I have my groove back!
This is a testament to Electroconvulsive Therapy, because medication alone has not been able to do this for me for at least the past 6 months. I may have lost a considerable amount of memory, but it is worth it because I am regaining my personality. I have uploaded the song for you to listen to if you’re a country music fan! And a special “Thank You” to Marty Jones (you know why!).